Patience...It's not a familiar word in my vocabulary. Everyone has said it, I tried it for about 3 minutes...but...
It's hard not to take it personally when he flips flops like a fish out of water. But I have learned that it's not me.
Two weeks ago I reached out to you and you responded.
I will not hurt you. I have been there, I know that feeling and I wouldn't do that to you.
I am not sure where you stand. I am willing to give you the stability that you are looking for. I am looking for that too.
He said, "will you think any less of me if I ask to make love to you?" She said, "would you think any less of me if I let you?" Those words were the beginning of the best years of her life.
Her memory went to the day she stepped back into his life...
She was raised believing that a man and woman should only lie together when they are husband and wife.
But right now, she was doing everything possible to keep from tearing their clothes to be as close to him as possible.
She walked up to the door. Before she could ring the door bell, the door flew open, every inch of his athletic frame filled the door and there was the biggest smile that she had ever seen. Breathe, breathe, take deep breaths...
He swept her up in his arms like she was a doll. She grabbed onto his arms. He gave her a quick peck on the cheek. She rested her head on his chest and took a deep sigh. She thought, 'this feels so right.'
She looked him in the eyes and held his gaze. Their lips met and the warmest sensation traveled through her body. This is what she wanted all those years ago and the desire is even more intense today. Her body leaned towards him. She moaned in delight.
Donnie, I will not hurt you. Have a little faith, put your heart out there, I will take care of it as if it was my own. I have been there I don't want to hurt, so why would I do that to you. I am not like other women. I love you.
He doesn't buy that I would mention a crush after 30 years. I thought he knew. I think he knew. Does he want me to pour out all me feelings? I thought I already had. I love him. I have been searching for him for the last 32 years. WOW!! 32 years...
He knocked on the hotel room door. She had to catch her breath before she opened it. The woosh of the door was the sound that drowned out her exhaling as she saw him standing at the door. All she could think was please give me the strength. She invited him in. He strode in as if it was his room. He closed the door as he entered the room. He swept her up in his arms and gave her a long awaited hug. She melted into those arms. Their lips met...Heat was growing and tongues were dancing in each other's mouths. Their hands were carressing each other's bodies. She let out a moan. His mouth pulled away from hers and went to the spot where her neck joined her torso. She turned her head so he could have greater access to that spot. Her breasts tightened up and the nipples hardened. Please move your hand to cover one of them, was the thought in her head. Please was the moan that came out of her mouth. That was all he needed to hear...He carried her the bed and in no time they were both naked. Hands and lips were discovering each other's bodies. He left a line of kisses from her neck to her breasts. He sucked on the nipples, he swirled his tongue around those nipples which got them harder and wet. Her hands grabbed both sides of his head and arched her back so that her breasts filled his mouth. He grabbed her sides as if to become one with her.
He moved his body back up to cover hers. Again they were kissing. His legs slowly separated her legs. She eased them open to fit him. She wanted him in her and he knew that but he wanted the moment to last. She was pulling him towards her but he was resisting. Her mind started to race...WHY??? She did not realize that he wanted to control the timing, but she needed him...really needed him. Just as she wanted him in high school. She was feeling that way again...
He whispered, 'slow down, we have all day.' She said, 'please, now. Please. I need you now.' 'It's been too long, I want to feel you inside of me,' she said. With the biggest grin on his face his response was, 'I know,' as he started kissing her again. She returned the kisses and ran her hands all over his upper body hoping to drive him crazy.
He reached out for her hands. He interlocked their fingers and stretched their arms over her head. With that she wrapped her legs around his legs and starting arching her back. A smile came across his face. She felt the smile, returned the smile and turned her head away. That did not stop him. He began to nibble on her ear. His tongue darted into her ear and she let out a sound that she had never heard. It came from deep inside her and he knew it was time.
He released her hands and held onto her hips. He positioned himself in order to enter her in one motion. Which is what he did. Both of them let out a sigh as he entered her completely.
I want to be in your arms. I want to feel your touch. Is that too much to ask for? Why did we reconnect? Did you say those things and not mean them?
WOW, you said you would be gone for the weekend, but I didn't think it would be the whole 10 days. Please don't do something stupid...Please!!
I am glad that you didn't do anything stupid!!
Was it a coincindence that you replied as my call was ending and we were talking about you. You were in my dream last night. I won't hurt you.
You really do flip-flip. What are you afraid of? Do you think I'll try to take advantage of you, well only if you want me too. Are you afraid I'll be disappointed? I can't be disappointed if I can't have the experience.
Do you think that you are going to fall madly in love and will be hurt when I leave? Do you think we will make love and you will be hurt when I leave?
I would love for you to take me in your arms and pull me close to your body. I want your head to bend down as mine stretches up and our lips meet. Our tongues become intertwined